John and I had a trip planned to go to Charlotte, NC for a curling meet (game? match? bonspiel?) at the end of next week with the Atlanta Curling Club. I'm not really down with the lingo, so please forgive me. Unfortunately, the venue decided they couldn't hold the event after all, so we are planning a little vacation around our own city. On my to-do list is to go to the Bodies exhibit, the Anne Frank Museum and possibly the High Museum of Art. We went to the Georgia Aquarium and Fernbank Museum of Natural History on my birthday in March, so it is time to explore some other options. If it isn't freezing outside, I want to get my bicycle up to par and take it out for a spin around the neighborhood or maybe on the Silver Comet Trail. We have no reason to not use the trail, since we are about 2 miles from it. I don't think laziness is a real excuse!
I think it is good to keep busy during the adoption wait. Generally, my classes would be my main distraction, but we are in between terms right now. In the meantime, sitting still and dwelling on the lack of having a baby or how difficult this process is, cannot be healthy. I have booked myself full again this week. Dinner and drinks with friends to celebrate the end of a semester, the beginnings of new friendships, the holiday season... you name it, we are celebrating it. My friend who lives half way across the country is coming to stay with us Friday night. We have a big plan to get out to my local watering hole and just relax (and eat pub food! yum!). It hasn't been an easy year for her or myself for that matter. Maybe we will just celebrate the end of 2013 coming and the beginning of a new year- a blank slate. She and I also need to discuss our upcoming coffee table book- How Not to Survive a Zombie Apocalypse. Please don't steal our idea, our book will be better no matter how funny you may think you are. We have a whole series of how-to's and how not-to's planned, that will no doubt make us rich and famous. Right???
Babies, babies, babies. That is where my head really is. Maybe it is some sort of hormonal cycling, but my brain is all "When is this going to happen?" "Why isn't it happening yet?" "We are pretty cool, shouldn't someone looking to place think so too?!". Logically, I know these things take time. Emotionally, these things taking time can feel torturous. I am well aware of the realities of adoption, the wait, the psychological implications on everyone involved. I believe that women looking to place their babies are having to make much harder decisions than we have made thus far. Maybe it is just harder for me to stay as positive during the holidays. I assume it is for most people who are sharing in this long quest to parenthood. I did stop and get a venti cup of liquid positivity at Starbucks this morning. Nothing gets me through the day like iced coffee.
Okay, so those are my ramblings for the day. I already feel some of the weight lifted just by writing it all down. Blogging is very therapeutic! That's it, everyone start a blog- it will resolve all of your untamed emotions and quite possibly save the world! I need a Nobel Peace Prize for that one.
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